Mask that Falls off


I will shed my clothes to show you the marks

On my body that you could see

I will shed my skin to reveal the scars

Of my old exhausted soul

That craves some amity

You’re scared and I will enjoy

Don’t you worry my dear friend,

I will wear the wrinkled skin again

To prove my soul is still protected

By the distorted courage

That keeps me moving

I will put on my clothes to be decent enough

So that I can mingle among you

~ Rayan Ahmed ~


A Humble Question from You


If a diabetic can share his illness with family, friends, and society and folks appear to be concerned about it then WHY a person suffering from bipolar disorder hesitate to share it with his fellow beings and at the first place, Why does s/he feel sorry about him and spend a life in a closet with his haunting thoughts?

Gay Rights Demand Homosexual Dignity

Honor is a Gentleman's trait.

Honor is a Gentleman’s trait.

I wish we would be as willing to warmly regard and express our inner beauty and kindness as we feel free to reveal our bodies to strangers. I feel deep sorrow while scrolling profile images on social networking site/app. There are several people contented to display their full or half naked seductive body pictures. I realize they are normal, decent and educated people like me in their real lives. They carry a sober and sophisticated image in their respective social circle. Then why that dignified image is not carried or accepted on gay social networking sites? Why does a person need to put his personal or a fake arousing photo to catch the attention of public? A person is a lot more than his physical body stats, his size and his role in bed. We act quite decently in real life; have a family, regular friends to hang around, colleagues to work with, hence a complete social life, where we act as a human being not gay or straight. People know us and accept us with our good and bad.

The reason for acting seductive on social sites is quite obvious. Most of us go there when in need of quick sex commonly known as a hook up. Who would want to go through the hassle of knowing the person when the superficial contact is merely meant to last for few hours or a night at the most?

I do not judge them for their actions. They have chosen a different fashion to spend life and fulfill desires. I just feel disgusted because I’m also a part of the community. I visit the site in hope to get a good company. I don’t even deny my sexual desires. But when I look at those hungry faces and greedy gestures, I truly feel embarrassed of myself. Every human being irrespective of his dynamics and background is equally respectful. No one can deny the existence of body needs and biological desires. But their pursuit shouldn’t be materialized on the cost of the human dignity and self-worth. There must be other appropriate ways to attract partner, which don’t compel us to put our naked bodies on the market shelves.

Ironically, we carry two public profiles: a decent one for real world and other slutty one for an apparently ‘fake’ community (which is in fact our real identity). Aren’t they reflecting our dual standards and hypocrisy? We can deceive anyone by our smartness but cannot lie to our conscience – the most honest accountability of the self.

Today, when there is a worldwide movement launched for gay rights and equal acceptance, it’s high time to rethink and critically analyze our practices. If we want our place in society with honor, we should take responsibility for our personal as well as sexual observance and display the conduct to prove that homosexuals are not different from straight people. We are not defined by our sexual desires. We also follow principles of morality. We regard ourselves and our fellow men with high esteem. And above all, homosexuality is a part of our personality, much higher than that, we are equal human beings.

Blessings of Mental Illness

The word ‘Disorder’ or ‘Disease’ contains enough negativity for someone (patient to be precise), to curse and consider him as the most unfortunate among his peers. And if it’s some kind of mental illness, then the social stigma would make the situation worse for the sufferer. Ironically, a cancer patient is often capable for gaining public sympathy vote and wishes but a mental patient doesn’t enjoy that privilege. By saying this, I don’t mean that someone going through a psychological problem, needs ‘Public Sympathy’. Not at all. Because this sympathy and extra-attention makes the life of sufferer miserable. S/he thinks that he is no more a human and people including family or friends who know about the disease, alienate the person by behaving and treating differently.

Blessings of Mental Illness

Blessings of Mental Illness

The mental illness is perceived as something very bad and fatal happened to a person, nothing can be done now… he will be on medications for the entire life, and financially dependent on family etc. That’s how the society generally sketches the lifestyle of a mental patient. I would not go in further details as how life-long body diseases like diabetes (pancreatic disorder), Blood pressure/Hypertension and other cardiac diseases, most of the skin diseases and allergies etc and on other hand the mental illnesses are perceived with high level of discrimination and prejudice among people. Because this is what we already knew.

Have you ever noticed that any of the bodily disease, like as I mentioned above, (diseases other than mental illness) come up with some natural gifts or talents? Like Do you know any heart patient or diabetic who achieved something in their life with the help of their illness? I’m sure, Never. But, we know several famous people who achieved something big in their lives by using gifts of their mental illnesses and today the world is using their work and wisdom.

As the the mental illness is the product of brain, so what people call ‘brain disorder’ or ‘disturbance in brain chemicals’ etc often enhances the mind power of the sufferer. S/he can feel and empathize with greater intensity. Most of such people are highly sensitive, caring and emotional. They have exceptional creative and imaginative tendencies. They see the world in a different manner. They are idealist and dreamers. People call them impulsive because they have their standards for decency, honesty and truth. They don’t compromise on their values just for some materialistic benefits. They feel the pain of others, that’s the reason, they are great friends, secret keepers and counselors, They are passionate for what they love. They are true to themselves and sometimes get very expressive that’s why often misunderstood for being insane and impulsive. They value relationships and go beyond limits to make their loved ones happy, for which they are labelled as possessive and demanding. They are not hypocrite who wear different masks and have several identities. They don’t manipulate or misuse others. They are simple and have beautiful thoughts..

.. and finally, they are not attention seekers. They just want acceptance in family, friends, and society as a human being instead of being known as a Mental Patient.

In my next post, Insha Allah I will write about different famous people: scientists, celebrities, writers, painters, philanthropists who were/are mental patients but they are NOT known as Mental Patient. The world witness and acknowledge them in far better and successful titles. (In the meanwhile, if you’re impatient and excited to know them, just search on Google)

Just remember, seeking acceptance from the society comes later. First ACCEPT YOURSELF as Human Being. Your disease doesn’t define you. It’s a part of your life NOT the center.


Blessings be upon you.